advanced spin

i have been quiet because i have been
busy.

i went and got one of those THINGS...
what do they call it???

oh yes...a JOB.

i've been lucky in life...
maybe because i've chosen not to be a full time working mama...
i've had the luxury of finding something i love and found a way to make money doing it.

it's been suggested i'm just an overachiever, and can't stop till i do it ALL...
(but i like my reasoning better)

but anyway...
for the last while i have been instructing spin at my gym.
it's a job.
there are meetings and salary and tee shirts that say
INSTRUCTOR
across the back.
(i'm an XS, thank you very much)

the old teacher was ushered out and i replaced her.
there has been drama that exhausts me.
i did not take the job until after she left.
but...she called me out in public about the ana.
THAT was a mistake.
i always win.

it seems like my success always comes on the backs of others.
i have a hard time with this.
but i suppose life is about the little choices we make.
i've made mine.
she made hers.

this weekend i have a master spin class in the city.
it's the first step in certification.
i'm excited, and nervous.
i worry most about the dining choices, as usual.
sigh.
you can't let on about ANA when you are paid to help people become healthy.