better?

there are days that i feel strong. 
days i think
"i can eat the foods my body needs"
days i think
"i am getting better"

but then,
there are days like today when i wonder what
"better"
is

i am healthy, i am strong.
i am thin and i am lean.
i can run for miles.

i have the best form around when doing weights, plank, push-ups...anything they ask me to do.
i barely eat.
why is that broken?

was i healthier when i was fat?
was i "better" when i ate all day long?

because i was fat, friends.
morbidly, clinically obese.

i think i am ok.
i don't understand why it matters to everyone else.

i think it is because they are scared of they way THEY live.
no one likes what they don't understand.

why do i care???

i think that's the real question.