crimson

so i had a few days where i thought for a second the eating disorder dissappeared.
i ate 1000 calories!
Like... 2 days in a row!

and i ate 6 donuts. 
6 krispy kreme donuts. 
and i felt bad, but not BAD.
and it wasn't even a binge...it was like...let me have two now...and later i had two...and then again!!

i didn't even have the will to run more than two miles.

and then i had a spot of blood on my TP.
the most period an anemic, anorexic, redheaded IUD user is ever gonna have.
and i gave a great big sigh of relief.

now it all makes sense.
and i'm back to normal.