Monday, May 17, 2010

it took me a year. anorexia works.

so... my boss at the gym saw old photos of me fat.
i was a size 26.
now i'm a 4.

he was SOOOO excited
(because i can inspire the fat girls who frequent our club)
that he took the fat photos and put them on the wall of our brand new gym,
along with pictures of me skinny.

in a frame.

and you KNOW the panic, self hatred, & mixed emotions this is evoking in me today.

i was fat.
i am skinny.
and i'm still not happy.

4 comments:

  1. just don't get fat again - that'll make it worse - trust me

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  2. yeah, i kinda live in fear of that every single day.

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  3. Oh my gosh, I can't imagine having any picture of me (fat or thin or inbetween) put up in a gym.

    Btw, I'm new to the blogging world, came across yours & liked it, so hi!

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  4. a constant reminder of all the depressing emotions you went through. What a great boss!

    ...will we ever be happy?

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